My fears explained...I think

by Erica
(Illinois)

Hello. Like many other people in the world, I have fears. However trivial they may seem, they are fears none the less.

I have a few fears, but my top 5 worst ones are stairs, vacuums, blenders, paper shredders, and fireworks. I know that they seem stupid, but those scare me. I think I understand why.

My problem is that I'm bipolar. Bipolar is a mental health issue where you have a hard time regulating your emotions. You can either be really depressed, a low, or you can feel on top of the world, a high or manic. That explains it in a nutshell.

I think that I'm scared of stairs (climacophobia) because when I was younger I tried commiting suicide by throwing myself down the stairs.

I think that I'm scared of the loud noises because they remind me of the battle I have going on in my head. It is hard to describe. All I can say is that to me it is worse then nails on a chalkboard. The noises are my inner demons, trying to be released.

I'm getting "help". Sometimes it works and other times it doesn't. I'm hoping that one day I can go to firework shows and not be scared. Or not freak out when I hear somebody vacuuming, shredding, or making a smoothie.