Fears oh so many

by Renee
(Gainesville, fl)

I am a 42 year old female and I suffer with so many different fears. My worst fear I believe I have is "fear of being alone". Someone must be with me at all times and it's been this way since 1989. They don't have to be in my site but not far either.

I also have fears of large stores and hospitals, Elevators and any car I'm in MUST park very close to where I am. I wont walk my dogs and I wont ride my horse far from the car or home. When I say not far I mean NOT far, like why even bother not far lol.

I am on medications (Imipramine) and (Xanax) as needed. I am so tired of living this way and I don't know what to do. I am desperate but again I am so scared to face my fears I don't know what to do. I don't know why I got this way and I am feeling very hopeless about it. If anyone knows what I'm feeling you know this is a terrible thing to have to deal with on a daily basis. Some people feel I do it just to get attention and that makes me feel sad. Why on earth would anyone want this????

I am so limited and I have no idea how to break free from this. Some say Cognitive therapy works but, it doesn't for me. Being put in a scary situation is not a good feeling to me at all. How do I get past this? Who can help? Will I be this way the rest of my life? I want to be happy but I feel there is no happiness in site when it comes to these disorders. Anyway, thank you for reading my letter.

Sincerely,
Renee
Gainesville, fl.

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