Fear that the love of my life will get hurt
(Sacramento, ca, usa)
I have been with my boyfriend for 4 years and I just built this fear that whenever he goes out something bad is going to happen to him. It is really taking a big part in my life. We have broken up many times, and I end up looking crazy when I continuously try talking to him to see if he is ok. And if he doesn't answer me I end up having a small panic attack until I hear back from him. I just look psycho because one second I will be screaming at him to get out of my life, then I end up calling him or texting him a second after to make sure I tell him I love him just incase something bad happens to him. It's driving me crazy because it makes me LOOK so crazy because he laughs in my face about it!