Fear of the Future

by suz
(philippines)

i was born of parents who were financially affluent on both sides of the family. due to dad's mishandling of finances, he lost everything. my mom contracted a bipolar disorder and lost what she had too. you can say we were from riches to rags.

i did quite alright. worked somehow and a good saver. husband (ex) provides good support. mu 2 grown sons are working but not earning well enough and i fear that they will grow old poor like my parents did. the worsening global economy is not helping my condition.

i wake up with anxiety in the morning that goes through the day. it only dissipates (but not totally gone)when the sun sets. i calm down somehow at night. sleep alright although late. but, i dread the coming of every morning.

SOS!