Fear Of Needles (Aichmophobia)

by Sabrina
(Littleton, NH)

Im a 17 year old girl getting ready to go off to college, and I cant even get a shot that may save my life.

Ever since I can remember, I have fear of needles. People initially thought that my fear was a product of my young age and that I would eventually grow out of it, but that was not the case.

When I was younger, it would take three or four people holding me down to administer a shot.

My fear skyrocketed after I lived through several years of abuse at the hands of what in my opinion is a monster. I was living with my father and his girlfriend's daughter thought it was funny how I reacted to needles. She found it amusing to poke me with them and watch me scream. Whats even worse was that my father was a diabetic, and his needles were the instruments that were used to torture me.

Now Im in an adoptive home, and my new parents are having a hard time understanding my phobia. Then again, so does everyone. Im used to hearing things like "Just close your eyes." or "Look away." or "Put some music on." Im sick of it.

People seem to think that its the pain that bothers me, but that has nothing to do with it. I know that the fear is silly, and that I will need to have many shots in my life, but I cannot just "Get over" the extreme fear that I have.

I wish for once that someone could get it through they're heads that Im incredibly uncomfortable and that this is not just something I can push aside.

It makes me angry that people can look at someone who is afraid of heights and say "We have to be sensitive of their needs" but then they look at me and say "Oh well thats too bad you're going to have to get over it." fear of needles and fear of heights are the same paralyzing fear, but people are just more accepting of heights.

I went to the doctors recently and they said that I should have the meningitis vaccine, along with Gardasil, the ovarian cancer vaccine. I would love to be protected from these things, but I cant get over the fear.

I need help.

mypirateromance at hotmail.com

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