Fear of Germs ?

by sherriiii
(london)

when I grab a dish to use I rinse it first , sometimes numerous times to rinse away any dust , germs or even the bacteria from someone's hands that may have put the dishes away.

If I don't rinse the dish I will most of the time drive myself crazy thinking of all the possibilities all the bacteria.

In elevators , buses , doctors offices I am trying to hold my breath or breathe into my jacket to not inhale others breath , dust and germs . I start thinking about all the sicknesses and possibilities once again.

I cant eat something that someone has handed me , it just freaks me out the thought of whatever they touch being on my bread or whatever it is I'm about to eat. I feel like I can almost see all the bacteria on the food they've touched.

is this odd ?