Thank you for sharing your story on here, I have depression and sometimes I feel the same way too, you are a really strong person! I have depression as well and sometimes it is really hard, my sister also has depression and it is especially hard for her, but this shows me that things can get better as long as you keep trying. I think that a lot of people really suffer from this phobia then people think, I'm really sorry about your dad, keep on pushing! You're a great person!